know me

Confused and left in a stand still;
Held on a pedestal, I can’t get over myself/
Cocky attitude expressed with belligerent words;
I greet the world with a fuck you, and leave with a have a nice day/
Hatred fueled by an inadequate past, but how more clearly can I get;
Look into my eyes and see the lashings I hide with my baggy pants
and this hat on my head/
Markings self made with stories deeply embedded within them;
Crimson that leaks secrets kept for ages;
See my scars then know me/
Read in between my lines and comprehend more than what the story may say;
Do I mean to tell, and tell what I mean?
Fuck it; I'm so bottled up my minds always racing;
With the pen on the paper, I can’t stop the words from flowing;
The ink is constantly escaping;
Sub conscious thoughts because I’m too afraid to speak ‘em;
My life’s always speeding, shyt I need a minute/
To jus breathe….

So do you feel me yet?
Or do I still come off as the distorted adolescent fighting for respect/
To stuck in the past to be grown, I’m not ready to grow up;
But fucked at the age of 5 I’ve developed this adult state of mind;
Where these images are constantly being thrown up/
Confused and left in a stand still;
Because these memories wont erase over time;
I’m caught in a whirlwind/
With my arms strapped down and his hands around my throat;
Life sure fucks well, but faith eats pussy better/
So I nut on these haters, with the desire that they choke on my shit
In hopes that in between the stance of life and death;
They realize that this person inside of me is only just scared/
A sheep in wolves clothing, don’t provoke me;
Defensive and high off of D.E.A.T.H;
Depressed from birth, misery was my mother’s maiden name, and even that bitch didn’t want me/
So who is the foundation of this illusion you see;
The effigy of a soul too blackened and too damned, to give a fuck if you care/