I'd like to think of myself as simple, but I often have a way of contradicting my thoughts. If there's anything in the world I'm looking for it would be someone who understands me. My indecisive life has left me heartbroken, disappointed, and in a fucc the world attitude. Beware...

Thursday, August 26, 2010

unfinished business

"This is really one of my dumbest flows ever I havn’t slept in days

And me and my latest girl agreed to go our seperate ways So i’m single...

Thinking about what we had and missing you

But I aint santa, I got something for these bad b*tches too" -DraKE

I've never been one for fairytales, but sweetheart, our ending cant be nothing more than destiny's typo;

Mistakes written in between bedsheets, our addiction keeps our hearts begging for more;

but you see, with each hit, each lift, im left feeling death in between my thighs;

Like a mother baron the outcome is me stricken and gasping for life;

You might just be the death of me, souls consumed into what...love? lust?

Back and forth, a simple game of cat and mouse has turned into the survival of the heart;

leave me be so I can perish alone, no heroes in this fable for i have fell in love with the vixon;

Like the seductress she is her words never fall short, and her touch continues to string me along;

A love spell finally in effect, im affected by the times spent, and the constant nights of her head on my pillow;

so riddle me this...

What happens when the pages have ran dry because this poet refuses to write anymore

refuses to cry anymore

What happens when my pen resents my scriptures of you, for i have bled too many times from my paper thin heart

As deadly as the blade that once caressed my skin,your double edged swords have re structured my whole being;

So this is how it goes, always the same

I'll walk, even if you leave, bc deny it or not your wrist will always be tied to mine

But by time the distance hits you time would have already put a block on your memory

Faded away like the lines underneath my nostrils,

you have surpassed even my strongest addictions, becoming a mere sin to be washed away

And this is why I never really believed in fairytales, bc once the high comes down and reality kicks in

Happy ever after was a dream invested, and time wasted... with you

R.I.P (9-8-09)

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Facebook | freewrite

Facebook freewrite: "reflecting on the images ive instilled into my life, these portraits are nothing but tears withdrawn;
ive held my heart so close to my chest it can hardly breathe;
and as i gasp for air, itz your picture that drains my mind
fragile...as i cant stand to speak, knees weak i fall to your feet
regretting not the times weve shared, but the lost of moments;
i contemplate your very move, hoping it will bring you closer to me
so plz accept my apology, for i am truly sorry
and though i whisper these words, sometimes saying nothing at all;
i pray that within you, you can feel my missing lifeline;
hearts no longer in conjunction, i fight for a reason to still love...anyone else that is;
bc as you have thought me to grow, only time will tell if i have thought you anything too (9.9.09)"